♥ Wednesday, October 17, 2007


2:41:00 PM Y


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♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Syukur..
I'm happy.. :)
I'm glad dat i haf a place to run to..
A shoulder to cry on..
A sincere fren by my side..
A caring colleague who looks after me..
A family that cares and loves me..
Alhamdullillah..




♥ Monday, October 15, 2007


11:40:00 AM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Well, today marks da 3rd day of raya..
Sadly, i had to work on da 1st day of raya but at least i got to see all my cousins here at my place..
But work was great and i simply loved it..
It was quite busy, well, for a typical sat night..
Saw a lot of new things dat reali made me love my job even more..
Reality can strike u in a good way and a bad way..
And i got both of it dat night..
Hehehehehe..
Honestly, i'm loving my job even more..
Even though it's challenging at times, bt it gives me a sense of satisfaction..
I can't wait to see my sisters back in HTA coming to the ground soon.. :)
He has been treating me well..
And i'm really thankful for all dat he's done for me..
But some tings happened between me and "somebody"..
And it's definitely not a good ting becoz now,
I can't even be around him..
I'm really pissed @ da idiot who created the stupid rumours..
Am i gonne be forever entangled in dis kind of situation..?
Seems dat everywer i go, same tings happen..
Should i change who i am?
Maybe hold myself back and stop being too nice..
Like Yan said, "he" and others might haf mis-read my actions..
Mayb i'm sending the wrong signals..
Haiz..
Is it so hard to find a guy who can juz treat me as a fren?
And nothing more?
Argh!!
Never mind, i'm juz happy being wit one..
And he's da one dat always makes me smile.. :)
Thanks sayang..




♥ Wednesday, October 10, 2007


6:54:00 PM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Tings haf been running rather smoothly lately..
And i hope it stays dat way..
Even though i noe there are gonna be more tougher days to come..
Especially in my area..
But nevertheless..
I love my Team Charlie..
They are a great bunch of people dat reali takes care of me..
They are always der wenever u nid sumbody and they never leave u hanging..
I'm happy to haf a great FTO dat is constantly patient wit me..
A TL dat is understanding..
Guys dat is always theer to cheer me up even on the darkest days..
Initially, i thot i'll be lost and left out..
But they din do dat..
They made me fil like i'm a part of their family..
We're a small, bt strong family..
I love u guys..
All of u..
Thanks for making me look forward to each new tour..
:))




♥ Wednesday, September 26, 2007


12:04:00 AM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

I'm juz hurt..
Reali hurt by wat happened..
I'm losing my grip and i can't afford dat wit my new career right now..
I'm tired..
Tired wit everything..
Dis is wat i want so dis is wat i haf to accept..
Dear, i'm tired..
Maybe its time we took a step down..
Ya Allah, berikanlah ku kekuatan dan semangat di dalam bulan yang suci dan mulia ini..




♥ Wednesday, September 19, 2007


9:53:00 PM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Memory rush..


Imagine 2 guys, chasing after a frog, trying to catch it wit a tissue wrapper, and shouting like a girl wen it jumped out of the wrapper..


Hahaha..


Dats wat my silat guys did way back in ITE.. Miss dem so muchie..


Don't tink we'll remember each other even if we met outside..







I wil always keep my dad's advice tru out my whole journey in my career..


Always be humble..








Is it a sin in life to love sumbody too much?


Becoz if it is, den go ahead and blame me..
Becoz i've committed a BIG SIN..


Love u too much too hate u Sayang..


Thank u..






I love my mum..


I love my dad..


I love all my brothers..


I love my sister..


I love my nephews..


Nobody can take that away from me..


Don't judge me..





♥ Friday, September 14, 2007


1:57:00 AM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

THOUGHT OF THE DAY...





The thing that you hate the most, is often the thing that you'll miss the most once it's gone..




Ironically, I agree wit dat..
Sumtimes, u realize dat by hating sumting or sumone, it actuali makes u human..
Simply becoz u realize that u are actuali experiencing different emotions..
It makes u feel alive..
Nobody can juz go on loving everything and everyone around dem..
Maybe some can, but how true is it?
Are they lying to the people around them?
Or themselves?
Always try to see the truth instead of hiding from the truth..
Truth hurts..
Dat's reality there no matter how cliche it sounds..
Being honest wit oneself is da most important thing in life..
How honest are we?
Are we looking at the picture as a whole?
Or a beautiful painting dat we desire?
Learn to love urself before u love others..
Dat's wat my boyfren always say to me..
But i'm glad he's there to give me unconditional love..
I wil learn baby..
I wil..



Interesting??

I tink so..
It doesnt mean i'm living in a world full of hate but it's a fact of life..
Sumtimes, u have to learn how to hate sumthing before u can love it..




So to everyone and everything i hate/dislike, i wan to express my deepest gratitude..



It's dis kind of feelings dat makes me feel alive..




♥ Saturday, September 08, 2007


12:20:00 AM Y


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♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Met my OC for lunch today and we had an interesting conversation..

Well, 1 thing's for sure, nw i noe who my true frens are..
But i reali appreciate all his advice and somehow or rather, i feel stronger and more confident..





I'm now in a tight dilemma..
I don't even noe wer to start or wat to say..



Tkx to my darlings for listening to my nonsense and giving me advice..
U gerls haf always been der for me and i am so glad dat our frenship lasted for so long..
I love u gerls so so much..
Only u guys undastand me inside out..
U gerls are not only frens, bt also sisters dat i love a whole lot..






Trust, is it reali impt in our lives?
Especially in a relationship?
It is..
It is IMPORTANT..





Dont break it.
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, bimbingilah Hamba mu ini...
Tunjukkan ku ke arah jalan yang terbaik untuk diriku ini...




♥ Wednesday, September 05, 2007


1:16:00 PM Y


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♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that




♥ Tuesday, September 04, 2007


11:34:00 PM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

Felt reali weird nt booking in.. Been doing da same ting for da past 6 months and it all came to a stop.. Haha.. Well, went back to HTA on mon to meet my OC.. It was nice juz being able to sit down wit him, listening to his stories.. We went to tha cafe and bumped into the guys from Alpha.. They saw me and smiled and they weren't reali surprised wen i told dem da news.. Haha.. Well, looking forward to werking wit u guys..

Den sat down wit Cikgu, SI Jamal and also my OC.. I feel awkward juz sitting der wit dem.. I mean, i've always been a trainee and der was dis line drawn across.. Although Cikgu has always been a fatherly figure for me, it stil feels weird to be sitting wit dem at 1 table.. But i reali haf to be thankful due to the fact, they all gave me such a warm welcome.. It was a totally different side.. Even the most cold people warmed up to me.. Thank u.. :))

Msged my sisters who are still back in camp.. GOD!! I miss u gerls so much mann.. The msges u guys sent me juz seem to make me miss u guys even more.. Ain, i miss u too darling.. Da msg u sent me, reali touched me and it made my eyes swell up wit tears.. I wil meet up wit u soon k darling.. Lea, take care of urself gerlfren.. I'll always be here for u..

Finally i got to msn wit my Zan baby.. Miss her so much.. Wen she msged me, i was estatic.. And wen i see da fotos dat she gave me, god, memory rush.. Haha.. I love u baby.. Always will..


I Miss You...


Da 1 who was always der for me... I Love u Zan...





♥ Sunday, September 02, 2007


1:37:00 PM Y


Post title :

♥ a CHOICE has been made. Let's juz LEAVE it to that

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
I MISS YOU...
Kerry
Lily
Aisha
Hazar
Alan
Zayid
Zhiwei
Kun Han
Nor Muhammad
Chee Hong
Faisal
Zul
Fairus
Benjamin
I wil always miss da times we spent together guys..
I wil cherish all da memories all of us made together..